Just Crazziness! lol

Yeah well i've had a lot of things happen lately. Some of them i can't talk about on here because i don't know whos reading this.. All's im gonna say is meagan we love you tons. You're so awesome, and don't forget God is always there for you.. no matter what! Uhm, lets see.. im just dealing with a lot of stuff lately. My recent break-up .. i took it pretty hard. To some people i may not show it. It's because i don't wanna show it. I honestly hate showing that im sad. Im just not a sad kinda person. I usually hide my sad feelings. Mhm.. but yeah and then like stuff with my parents lately. It's just im 18 right? that doesnt give me the world. But, technically i am an adult now. So shouldnt I be able to make some decisions? Well kay, i do but on certain areas i can't. Sigh*.. i dunno what do to. I've been asking God a lot of questions and i just get no response. I think its cause I haven't been listening to him lately and just been busy and such. Reading my bible at night usually helps me to understand what God wants and is telling me. But i guess its like if someone is talking to you face to face and you're consintrating on the music playing in the store or what you're doing that night, you'll never hear what they're saying to you.. right? Exactly. So maybe thats what im doing right now.. :( Ignoring God accidently?? Gr.. And yeah like and im dealing with these feelings with liking someone right now and yeah i just have to wait and see what God wants for now. Being friends is really cool because you can get to know that person on a friendship basis first. And also im just trying to settle things in my mind with my last boyfriend, so its been a tough month or so in my mind, haha. It's really hard but i know with God's help i will be able to leave the past in the past. Uhhmm and yeah i've been going to M:180 and the loft lately. That's been really fun actually. Chizzum is pretty fun to hang around with. He knows how to make everyone there laugh, which is really cool. I miss tiffy tho, shes been away at a youth thing this weekend. But she'll be back. :) Im goin to the loft on Tuesday and Wednesday, but i have to work Thursday. Gr.. thats my favorite day to go cause its 2-6 :( . Chizzum thanks for understanding things and stuff. And just being there for me lately. It's super cool to have a friend like that. Oh kay i was listening to this Tree 63 song i want everyone to see (its a christian band) but yeah here the lyrics:

Look what You've done for me
Your blood has set me free
Jesus my Lord look what You've done for me

I haven't been the same
Ever since that day I called Your name
Yahweh Yahweh Look What You've done for me

What can I do for You my Lord?
I want You to know my heart is Yours
It's not a question of what You can do for me
But what can I do for You my Lord?

Up to Your cross I crawled
Now I am standing teen feet tall
Jesus my saviour look what You've done for me

Free at last I'm free
I owe You my life completely
YahwehYahweh look what You've done for me

Kay yeah night!! <3
Rachhhh Aka Princess!

Kay wow!

So many things .. wow
hah uhhh lets see kay i read the most amazing blog like 2 seconds ago! Wow kay.. gotta calm down haha.*breathe rachel* haha but yeah i never had so many nice things said about me at once! And i just want to read it over and over cause its soooo nice... But yeah.. It was definately uplifting. I just cant stop smiling right now actually. And so my friend Chizz came into work to visit me the other day.. and he was supposed to come at 1 ish.. and he came about 5 something and i didnt expect he'd come at that time so i was like definately surprised. Uhmm yeah! hes probably the coolest/randomest guy ive ever met. Ha yea. Hes super funny too. Oh and tonight me and tiff went to Pirates 2!! AHHHH! such a good movie!! Then we walked to Tim hortons after and had a really good long talk. Yeah we're awesome what can i say, haah jks. But seriously.. hah anyways! Im going to this loft thing with her wednesday and i hope to see some people there i know. Chizz goes there... but im not sure if hes going to be there.. mmh. Uhmm what else.. going to church tomorrow morning.. and then checking my hours at Canadian.. so yeah im hoping i dont work wednesday so that i can go to the loft!!!! Ahh! haha But yeah.. uhmm Chizz if your reading this you write the coolest e-mails! So yeah.. Ga i hate being nervous.. wow then things get awkward well.. no not really. Kay the loft i keep mentioning it but yeah.. last time me and tiff were there chizz was playing this letter game? haha but yeah i want to play that this time.. cause i wanna see how good i can be.. who knows tho. I dont know many people there yet.. so yeah i will just have to be out- going cause tiff might be busy doin her own stuff so. But it's all good. Anyways i wonder how long this blog is going to be.. haha oh well. Oh, and tiff is a good person to confide in.. like i was wondering a bunch of things tonight and she gave me some pretty good advice. OH AND.. :D im going to YC ALBERTA with her church prob!!! yay!! haha shes like "yeah, sure you can come!" im like yessss! Cause i've only been to YCSASK and if ycsask is awesome yc alberta will be even more awesome. I love the speakers and the bands. SO amazing. but yeah well i should end this cause i keep goin on. I should get back msning! :P So well thanks for reading "The one and only Rachel's Blog" if that makes ANY sense haha. SO.. uh.. kay bye? haah